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I banged the shit out of myself today. My hands are sore. Blue black on right wrist to palm and an extremely painful left wrist. But I enjoyed it you see... That is what scares me. It was a great pleasure and I really enjoyed it. I felt free and glad. My friends call me crazy. Well, I think I am now... ♥Going crazy(:

On Monday, we came back from March Holidays. Yeah, that’s about all other than a new timetable. Tuesday, I didn't understand Chemistry. Mrs. Henry held 3/5 back to finish writing our resilience Journal before releasing us. Juliana drank strawberry ice blend and we ate some really spicy potato chips for $0.60. Spicy!!! I found Mr. Seet's notes for Atomic Structure and Ionic Bonding (: Wednesday, F&N was great without having to learn it. Ben slept in SS. His eyes were blood red when he woke up. Had Math test which I have already 100% lost 3 marks. Thursday, I was a little down so I never run during PE. I had to read as Elizabeth Proctor for Literature. Had Math supplementary. Lol. Ok ah... Friday, damn this day. Ate chocolate teddies in class just after spontaneous writing. Miss Kamath caught me putting me in my mouth becos she walked from 3/7 there... During literature, I get to say the word WHORE and it was so great (: During recess, Anisa and Wan Qiu was crapping and Tiffa...

Some things are just meant not to be tampered with. Life, feelings, emotions, faith and love. We humans let it die out and fade at times. It's our selfishness. We let everything look innocent, when inside it's all frigging' broken. No, I'm no expert or specialist. But hey, I know how it feels to feel. Walk in my shoes... You'll feel all lonely and in despair. hated, ugly, unwanted and different, like you just don't belong. If you think this is a joke, you are a real fucking jerk. Mean freaks like (maybe) you ruin lives like my own. So I am a hyper freak, I get it yo. It's a part of me I just can't erase... but that doesn't mean I hate it. I am a girl who loves me. I accept who I am as I am. I hate some things about me but I don't blame someone for my sadness. Hear that Juliana? Don't harass..... Everyone wants to know the truth, but I can't handle the truth. ♥who i really am.

Had a horrible week. Being paranoid. Juliana bought lays for me and her Fun sia go and hyper up Oh and finish the CCA board. Very proud of it...not really. Luckily I hide in all the pictures^^ Had maths test. Miss ong say highest is girls and 30. Lol. Whatever la. Like I care. Went berserk during CCA. that boy pissed me off. He irritates me. Juliana laughed so hard after inside joke. My fren in front of me in class is so loner this week. Sorry I noisy ah. Guy beside me in class give me sweet. Then my class is well, like that ah. At home and rotting ppl. ♥Hahahaa

Why do I feel so alone? It is like an empty heart. Is it the spaces in between? Why is my life getting so hard? day by day... when will I feel complete? there is so little to achieve. I don't care anymore. I can hardly wake up each morning. Gasp? Can you all give me a chance? Give me a chance to show you, who I really can be. It's different now. I'm different. I'm letting go... Of those insane memories, which held me behind. I will try my very best. Just my best... ♥Just love

Have not been out much... Mais's house for CME project...(MON) Tiffany's house for fun(SAT) LoL. Tiff was really funny^^ Other than that, finished all hwk on MON! I am so nerdy (sadsad) Have not have fun cause... I dun really have a reason. YIKES! Maybe I'm gonna turn into one of those freaks. Cant get out of the house! ArGh!!! Okok... Tze Min, get well soon yeah? I am gonna be in so much trouble. I want to get into trouble. Spice up this life a bit more. Push myself to the limit. Hehe^^ ♥Miserable loves company

After that Friday, I mix and matched some clothes. I like this one best. A light pink sleeveless and green 'tie' Gloretta made the tie for me Anyway, having a bullshit holidae. Forgot SS textbk and The Crucible from Tiff. OMG! Haha. I am hoping for some miracle this holiday. Lol. And my CA1 was alritez... The laptop keeps shutting down. What the shit ritez? Anyway, am in awestruck mood. Hehe. Happy Holidays Yeah? ♥WOOTZ

I am guilty. I'm NOT a stalker. So they saiy I am a fake. I may have lied a little. I know it's worth the lie. I want to touch the twinkling stars. Class cheer is kinda cool. Gloretta is sitting beside me. WtF? I'm filled with boredom. ♥With Love