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i was not ever alive. i wish i could be nicer... i wish people would know me before judging me. i wish i am a better friend than i am now. i wish i didn't have mood swings... i wish i could say what i feel in my heart. i wish i could be who i want to be. stop making me feel all alone. stop blaming me for things i have never done. stop making me feel guilty all the time. i cant take it anymore. i have enough of these lies and hatred. i am all gone. ALL GONE! ♥no more love left

I am so dead. Not prepared for the common tests OR anything that comes with it. I cant remember anything about SS. Then comes the part that I am tired. Tired of always having to listen. Not that it sucks but no one understands this bloody world anymore. It's gone berserk people! I want a new friend. Hehe. Can I buy one? Okay... that was random. BOUGHT NEW EARPIECE! pink^^ ♥With Love

I HATE Valentines' Day. Seriously. I'm always single... So I read my PC journal today. There is so much random stuff in there. I am DONE with my homework. I discovered my phone RAWKS. I love oreos and wishes that I would get an oreo cake^^ Too much writing made my hand numb. I couldn't even move it. Haha I took an overdose of aspirins and have become so tiggerish. (pooh's fren) TTFE ♥With Love

Hmm... I'm a backstabber isn't it? well...well..well... I wonder who said that. Is it you? Guilty conscience? It's so sad that you don't come straight to me. Let's clear things out. Make Peace Not War. PEOPLE, my life is so bullshit right now. Stop rambling about me. F*ck you for it. (clearing throat) Goodnight. ♥So much for love, Me.

OhMyGod! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TZE MIN! Haha. 15 years old eh? Well, may all your wishes come true. I'll always love you yeah?! And bestie, I would always remember you. You're a special star. IN my HEART. hehe ♥With Love, Zee

I am just the same as all the other people. Dont treat me differently. Camp was well... bitchy, fun, painful and ... I got a new phone! Thanks dad If you have some misunderstandings abt me, please, see me in person. We'll clear it all out. Let's all shed tears for all of our foolishness. ♥With Love, Zee

Don't be a little bitch with your chit chat from Keisha's Blah Blah Blah Trust me, I'm not that little play about bitch. I want a GIGANTIC teddy bear! lol. That was so random. I saw sooo many while buying Tze Min's b'dae present. Haha. ♥With Love

Guy in front of me in class, why are you so sarcastic and evil? hehe. just wanted to stop by and write smth.. Drunk me up with Vodka and aspirins. I try to reach for the stars but I only caught it's shine. Please write me a song of love and lies. ♥With Love, Zee

I had a horrible day. I'm so broken up inside and so shitty on the outside. It's so painful to feel so shit. It suffocates me until I have nothing to fear. I'm merely messing around with my whole life. Nothing good happened to my life today. It's just falling apart. BUT at least I get hugs ♥With Love

Sweet revenge and bitter lies. I'm so sick of all this. Thanks so much teachers for making it even worse. This a story of the melancholy of me. I'm having problems having to climb the bloody social ladder. No one understands me any more. I think I'm going crazy but why? Break me apart and see me shatter like glass. See me as I am and believe it. I am insane and stupid. Yeah, tell me that again shitty people. Slit my wrist and kiss me goodbye. That's my advice for no one. I'm so afraid of what going to happen now? Am i going to disappear to the horizon? Tell me something I don't know ppl. Tell me. Face me. Destroy me. I'll come and get you bitches. Trust me, I'm almost on my way to embark. ♥With hatred Love

Dear Christie Leong, please dont leave. I'll miss you and I'll have no one there for my bigbig hug. You are the awesome is my life. Kinda... hehe. You cheer me up and you make me smile. Please keep in touch. ♥xoxo, me

Happy 15th Birthday Tracy! I bought you smth 79cm. Hope you L.O.V.E it! ♥With Love, me

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRACY! Happy 15th Birthday Tracy! I bought you smth 79cm. Hope you L.O.V.E it! ♥With Love, me

I dont wanna B.S. School sucks and not that i find anything special abt my classmates. henh. What's so great about school? It's shit and my life is crumbling. I hate my teachers but at least... my besties keep my life lively. English Diagnostic Test was okay... Wrote about drugs and how misunderstood my life was. Sounded dumb. zzz. ♥With Love

Never think you know me. Thats my message now. THANKS TO: Tiff(NyNy) for the grey SPLIT sleeveless and going ahead with my 'plans' T.M. a.k.a Juliana for the baby pink sleeveless, apron and the ribbon black dress. Diana for all the love messages. LOL^^ For Maisarah for always being a great support. I've changed blog skin and may be changing again soon... It's a constant thing. ♥Love.

I will change blogskin soon. Cant keep to this one(: The pictures is for entertainment. LoL. ♥ With Loves and much insaneness, Me(:

Today is so called movie marathon day. At 11.30am-1.15pm, I watched Naruto, ninja clash in the land of snow (or smth like that). It was really fun especially because sasuke is so fast and calm. He doesn't make a big fuss. At 1.15pm-2.45pm, I watched The Seeker: The Dark Is Rising. It was wickedly AWESOME! The signs that Will(the seeker) found, in the order he found them, were: 1. Inside a pendant Will bought for his little sister Gwen 2. Just before the black plague, inside a skull's mouth under a church - the skull belonging to the creator of the signs - at the beginning of the 14th Century 3. On a shield some time in the past when Vikings attacked the village. He loses his watch in exchange for the sign. 4. On one of the feathers of "The Champion" from 1690 5. Underwater in a manor when it was flooded 6. Will's soul Then, later at 7.30pm, is HSM 3! I know it's really damn good because I just know it... Haha. Really. I can almost bet(: ♥With Love and fun

I am unhappy. Why must everyone change when we get older? I dont understand. It's so sad that the people I used to be comfortable with has slipped away. It's even more sad that now that I'm a teenager, boys are so hard to communicate with. Why cant they just talk and play as usual? Why must everyone make their lives so miserable? I wish everything is like when I was 10 years old. Why can't everyone hug ea ch other? The thrill of climbing into abandoned houses and building sandcastles without a big fuss. I hate this change. I've only realized this now... Hmph... I wonder why... xoxo ♥With Love and sadness.

Funny how live seems to be so filled of colours but still bleak. Bleh. Well anyway, am gonna change. That, i definitely will. Just see. Next year will be a fresh start(not). I love me and everyone else. Hugs xoxo ♥With Love

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