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♥haha. Am 14 todae. Not too happy. Got a cake. Duffy duck. Haha. Lol...never do e things I am SUPPOSED to do during the holidae. It's so sad and tragic. Haven finish holidae hwk. Heck... Ok. Here is 14 ways I have changed since last year. 14) I have copied my fren's hwk now at 14. (1st time) 13)I wear more dresses...(weird) 12)I run faster?! (lame) 11)Having Mixpod. ( ???) 10)Spending less time wif my frens 09)Passing Maths for the 1st time in sec. school 08)Having a Victoria Secret!!! 07)Updating this blog. 06)Christine(in my opinion) became nicer 05)having a below 50 level position 04)Writing letters to TRACY(2/7) 03)Got the perlini ring I wanted 02)Said the unsaid(lies, secrets n ya...) 01)AM OVER THE SHITTY WORLD(thnks 2 those no gd ppl)

Was not so sure what to sae. Yes, bitch still sucks... Use ur hand campaign, shitty. PTM, parents never come AND SO had to arrange the tables in hall for the O's. W.T.F cann??? People play play then table not straight. Damn shit. Came home. Use laptop. Soon. gonna sleep. ♥Silence...

Yeah. On the 18th of May 2009 I went to the library with Anisah from 2/7. Wow. What a great time we had man! Went to library and met LIMYINGRU!!! She looks hot man! Then, atTampines One, we went around. So cool but... NOTMYTYPE! We took some pictures together and it was damn fun. We then went Primadeli where Anisah bought chocolate waffle. Then, we went to the Pasar Malam and look-look. And haha, Anisah bought Blueberry drink. She commented that it was SUPER cold. And... WE WENT TO WHITESANDS! ok.That is so lame.haha There, we took some more pictures. She looks damn hot cann? We met Jia Xin, Keresa and Danial. I took two pictures with Jia Xin for... MEMORIES !!! So ya. That was how marking day went for me. YAY!YAY!YAY!YAY! I have a black heart ...♥

I know people surround me. I know there are always times 4 me 2 smile. I know I laugh and feel happy. Inside, everything is dead hollow. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Ok. i have got to hate exams. I never complete SOOO many papers... If I can pass all subjects, I'm happy enough . WTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTF O.k... There are some things in my life, better if left ALONE. Stop digging into my life caN? Thanks. A ♥ left all alone...

Happy Belated Birthdae Christie! Well, life is a bleak right now. I really want to be friends with ALL SEC 2 students in my school. I want to be as fun as before. I guess... I have done too much damage to my life. I want eveyone to forgive me... yeah right. I am far too smart for such moves. I want to say I am sooo thankful to myself. FOR SURVIVING!!! Wakakakaka ♥This black heart is bleeding.

I am being damn negative here. My whole wide world has come down. I feel terribly alone. I feel sad.Crestfallen.Dead.Apathetic. What has become of me? Explain to me, how do I become normal? I feel trapped. Am I mental? Do I need the doctors? Yeah, I guess I'm crazy... I am always sad. WHY? I'm not sure how to be normal. I'm sure life is suppose to be great. Michael, I'm still waiting for your defination . I want to be normal. I want to lead a normal life. I want to be stable. I dun wanna fall again. I dun wanna cry again. I want to be normal. What is normal Mr Nice Guy? AND Michael, thnks maybe its becos I am too negative. I jus nid time.. thanks... A Heart that will be broken...♥

Thnks 4 all you've comforted me MR NICE GUY' Glad you're still my friend even after my mood swing and bad manners... I guess being alone is like being negative rite? And To Myself... I am sorry for being so hopeless... I'll try harder! And stop thinking abt death... ♥Silence Is A Virtue

First and for most, THIS BLOG IS NOT BASED ON A GUY OR ANYTHING. ITS MY LIFE MAN SO DUN YOU DARE CREATE HAVOC. thanks. My life may be at the very brink but I am not blind. I know you so-called people are talking behind my back . SO WHAT? My whole world seems to be crashing down badly. My education has gone up a notch. But the rest... Is going down the drain. No. I'm not yet giving up. Shut your shit cause I dun give a bloody damn. ♥♥♥SiLeNcE♥♥♥

HAPPY BIRTDAY TZE XINxxx XD, 14 at last, Love you lotz . Iwill always be there 4 u ♥♥♥SiLeNcE♥♥♥

I've redo my wishlist. :) ♥♥♥SiLeNcE♥♥♥

Maths teacher not feeling well today. She kept on writing the wrong answers. In the end, my class said "Give her one Jing Cheng clap" "Go homelah!" Then she smiled. We kept on talking. But did you think she would not get pissed? Of course yeslah. But, my class is noisylah. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! GO N DIE!(IF U SUCK)~♥~

School has started but nothing is going rite 4 me... I had not been paying attention! Whatever,,,*SiGh* Now, i long to go out wif a friend... Like if you're wondering abt sec 1s... They look really short and the girls seems to have a hair statement. BANGS or CLIP UP EVERYTHING! That is like so weird... I have not seen anyone special this year. Just like any other year... Hope my sister gets a bf soon. That would spice my life a little. I am so sad.... 4 myself that is. I am as lonely as ever. Have you ever felt lonely? well..welcome to my world. By the way, i feel lonely on the INSIDE... GO N DIE!(IF U SUCK)~♥~

GO N DIE!(IF U SUCK)~♥ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zeR3NSYcHk Find out my favourite song currently.\

Shit shit shit listen, just listen. Everyone... hate me please dead GO N DIE!(IF U SUCK)~♥~

Sooooo cute!!!! GO N DIE!(IF U SUCK)~♥~

7:36 AM 8/10/2008 Wow i am in the midst of my exams but it seems a mile away. Firstly because i found some things i am surpose to know and it kinda bothered me. I must thank my besties for not telling me earlier but WHY must it be when i am in the midst of my exams...*Haiz* i wish i was not born and i do not have to be living life this way. I guess my studies is good but to me, thats not what i aim for. I aim for happiness but nothing surfaced. Yeah, going out with friends IS(not was) but sometimes... i feel left out. With their new member, i dunno if i still fit in. Whatever it is, i think racism is happening in my class but i dun really mind because as long as i dun bother what could happen right?I am writing way too much about myself... Most of you guys would most probably not know that i surpport Ferari in F1. I really think this year have been a crazy year for them but with all hopes, i hope it'll not be another chearting. Poor Raikkonen...its okay! He is still th...

3:12 PM 3:17 PM 26/9/2008 Dear...you, I am gonna tell you that 2dae... I WAS DRENCHED!!! It was raining n it kinda sucked... Anyway..2dae we had the english n higher malay papaer 1. Let be bet...i did it like shit. Its darn tough...kinda i guess... I was juz lzy 2 write a lot of details... So i did nothing soooo fun 2dae. However, i reallly love myself. Love, Princess Me GO N DIE!(IF U SUCK)~♥~

Happy...nonono... uneventful birthdae 2 u kak maziah. my third sis. lol...so now u;re 17. SO OLD!!! jkjkjk oh...n i m proud 4 givin her a present wrapped TWICE! WHATEVER! This is 4 u, M mm...its nice A IYO!LAMELAH. z amzam ala ke zam I nside my room i sleeping. And i am filled with presents. H ahaha...in ur dreams!!! Remember me NOT, Fallen Devil GO N DIE!(IF U SUCK)~♥~

You KNOW WAT! todae...i gt literature project. Merchant Of Vernice play. Horrible like shit ah! You Yan KICKED my eye. It was bloody redlah! Ting Rui stepped on my hand! PAINFUL!PAINFUL!PAINFUL! OUCH!OUCH!OUCH! heck lah. haiz...no Offencelah. Soulfully Wicked, Fallen Devil GO N DIE!(IF U SUCK)~♥~

well...wat can i probably say? My life is currently in a whirlwhind.' So much 2 dread abt... School,home,frens,enemies,teachers n freaks. I dunno y but... a lot of pll changed. Faustina is no much than a...? a erm...Confused gal? Tiffany is now... greatter i guess... Fathin?Nabilah? I?Dunno? Christabell IS usual. Nur Aqilah Hassan is... OUT OF HER MIND! Ying ru? i dunnolah... My hatred self, Fallen Devil GO N DIE!(IF U SUCK)~♥~