Alone is kinda good

I'm not who you think I am
I lie in front of your faces & you still believe
I find solace within these walls
I let my anger overtake my actions

Anger clouds every inch of my being

I find myself pathetic at times

I can't even bring myself to face the world sometimes

I wake up in the morning having awful thoughts sometimes

Thoughts that make me go mad

People just wouldn't understand if I tell them

They'll say, "I understand. It's okay."

That is effing bullshit

I feel so down today

It's the weather, the stupid life & stupid times

I want to hold on to stay sane but I have no will to

My body wants to feel pain while I try to stay sane

It wants to hurt

To feel something worse than what's been lying on the inside

I'm dun wan attention

I want de-attention

I want to be alone and contented with my own space

♥xoxo