Youth

I couldnt sleep. I haven't been sleeping well at all. At first, it was the "maybe staying up would help me feel better" then it became the "i cant seem to fall asleep at all" or the "my sleep is always disturbed". I want to fall asleep, wake up fresh the next morning and just smile. But no. Stupid moments like tossing and turning in bed does NOT help at all. It makes me feel all lethargic and sorts. Yes, there is something completely and utterly wrong with me. It's been tough. I just want to be me again but that'll mean losing friendships and sorts which totally sucks. See, all this is getting difficult for me. Veryvery tough on me. Okay. Yup. Uhhuh. Trust me, it doesn't end there. Heh. Other awful stuffs are happening in my life and i cant stand this anymore. My road to recovery is in no way going well. Im hurting more than recovering. Thanks. Thanks a lot.

It comes back. It hunts me down. Every single time Im up, they'll tear me down. They takr away my sanity. I dun think I'll EVER be okay.

It's like Im being followed. It's like it hates me. It's like it wants to break me into pieces. It's like nothing actually matters anymore. It's like I wanted it all to happen. It's like I deserve all this. It's like... It's all falling apart and no one believes me. They try to help me out. They try and try but I just can't. It's pulling me in It's taking control of me. It's how no one really wants to know me. They can't. It'll hurt them too, Im hurting people. Too many people. ♥me

I buy guitar picks for people when Im upset or wen i feel like it.

Hi world, im a screw up. I have no idea what's wrong wif me but who cares right? And by the way, i know how much people hate me. Stop telling me. But thank you very much for hating me. It makes me a better and crazier person. xoxo

I hate this. All of this. The stupid choices Ive gotta make. The annoying people Ive actually met. The insane hurt I see around me. The charade put up. The scary lies. The upsetting truth. The fact that I don't matter. The tears, The fake smiles. The harsh reality. The feeling like I just want to fall. The anger that lasts forever. The secrets you still keep. The pain you're going thru. The endless apathy. dammit. I cant do this. Not now. Not ever. ♥Why?

Im taking a break from internet. ♥With Love

Im always like this at night. When the sun goes down, Im a sleeping being. The higher I get, the faster I fall. I want to know what's wrong. But I don't want to. I want to text people and tell them all my troubles. But I can't bear to see them hurt. I hate how weak Im. I want to hide and keep hiding. I have no will. No power. fuckthis.fuckit.fuckisay.fuckhowthisfeels.fuck.fuck.fuck. ♥silence is deafening

♥My best 3 pixs during holiday :D

What if i told you i dun have the strength to fight? What if i said i give up? What if i won't get back up again? What if...