Im unsure.

Im always like this at night.
When the sun goes down, Im a sleeping being.
The higher I get, the faster I fall.
I want to know what's wrong.
But I don't want to.
I want to text people and tell them all my troubles.
But I can't bear to see them hurt.
I hate how weak Im.
I want to hide and keep hiding.
I have no will.
No power.
fuckthis.fuckit.fuckisay.fuckhowthisfeels.fuck.fuck.fuck.

♥silence is deafening

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