Youth

Hmm.. So Im currently in a relationship. Im not going to say that it has been easy. I mean a month plus and we've had our break downs and throw outs. But I hope we'll last as long as possible and make impossible possible someday.. And we started out unexpectedly and I didn't know that I could love like this. Thus Im thankful for him who always make me smile when Im down and hugs me tight when Im in a helpless state of mind.  ♥WJWS

I've not written in quite a bit. So I shall write a little more. I guess today I'm confused. It seems like I have fallen for someone. There's just something to him that makes me want to cry and be the most vulnerable one. I dunno if I like him or is it just I care for my empire. It's not easy. Sigh. ♥With Love

So basically, it's the holidays. Im broke. I've cleaned up my cardboard and then.. sigh. I can't buy clothes cos my first sister won't let me. And it sucks cos I want comfy clothes and all the clothes I have are those really tight or like supposedly nice. NICE IS NOT COMFY OKAY? There's a huge difference. I feel sad. Obviously. And it's not just that. Basically, I can't find a job. No one wants me. Im incapable. GREAT. And it doesn't get better from here on. I have camp from the 25-28th and I've not packed. Not anticipating it. And worse of all, my parents wants to go Bandung, Indonesia and I just wanna scream. SCREAM I tell you. I wanna go too but if I don't have money then how am I suppose to go? URGH. This is the saddest time of my life I swear.  ♥SIGH:/

It is but moments like this that trust falters and truth is twisted into lies. I don't know where it all began or why it did but that's not how a family should act.  ♥With Love

It's going to come to an end soon. But the pressure and stress, it really builds up. I don't even know where to start.The amount of work is just.. horrifying. You know they stereotype the Arts students in secondary school, yeah. I feel that now. I feel awful. I don't know a thing. And when I read up, I don't, I'm not.. that type of person who just sits down and can finish their work. I need so much time and effort just to get myself going. Somedays I just curl under my blanket and just 'wake up late' just because. And I don't know why or when I became like this. Don't talk about society to me. They just are. How can I even succeed if I can't overcome me. ME. I come late for lectures in the morning and sometimes, when my brain is fuzzed out, I just.. I just skip lectures. Im disappointing my parents and no, Im not suppose to do that. I am that daughter they go around boasting about to everyone. I just have to keep satisfying them I ...