Just because


It's going to come to an end soon. But the pressure and stress, it really builds up. I don't even know where to start.The amount of work is just.. horrifying. You know they stereotype the Arts students in secondary school, yeah. I feel that now. I feel awful. I don't know a thing. And when I read up, I don't, I'm not.. that type of person who just sits down and can finish their work. I need so much time and effort just to get myself going. Somedays I just curl under my blanket and just 'wake up late' just because. And I don't know why or when I became like this.
Don't talk about society to me. They just are. How can I even succeed if I can't overcome me. ME. I come late for lectures in the morning and sometimes, when my brain is fuzzed out, I just.. I just skip lectures. Im disappointing my parents and no, Im not suppose to do that. I am that daughter they go around boasting about to everyone. I just have to keep satisfying them I need to.. I just need a break. I keep crying and nothing is solved. I don't even know how to solve it.
I know I need to do well in school, I just know it. And I know there are people who cares for me but I just can't. After the many can(s), I just can't. It's like I've officially slammed myself into a brick wall. Im smashed. How do I get back up from here? I can but it'll take time. Time that I do not have.
♥Insanity is Around

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