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Au revoir 2011 Before new year comes by, I want to apologize for anything that I've done wrong in 2010. Maybe it's my action or maybe it's my words. Either way, I'm sorry. I'd also like to thank everyone that helped me in my life in 2010 and entertain like crazy 'cos of my hyperness(: Then I'd like to say... HAPPY NEW YEAR! ♥with lots and lots of love

I'm angry 'cos I'm frustrated. I'm angry 'cos he doesn't understand I'm angry 'cos he kills my imagination I'm angry 'cos I can never hate him. Ever. I'm angry 'cos I need him more than he needs me. I'm angry 'cos I'm so weak and I can never escape him. But I'm angry 'cos I'm the one at fault in the first place for what I say. ♥Je suis frustré

Don't tell your problems to people: eighty percent don't care; and the other twenty percent are glad you have them. Lou Holtz Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication. - Leonardo da Vinci Have a heart that never hardens, a temper that never tires, a touch that never hurts. Charles Dickens Silence don't suffocate. Carbon dioxide does that. fullstop production Love is like a bus trip with little bumps and a bag of joy. fullstop production ♥ Souhaitant sur une étoile

Back from BBQ. Had fun^^ Body aches. Nites. ♥xoxo

Pictures of me & I "It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves." - William Shakespeare S ometimes, in life , we lose our way We take life for granted We are ignorant to our surroundings But in life, we also learn . We grow, we understand & we live In the sky, we see star & the moon and maybe even the velvet sky We experiment with nature We abuse it at times But have you ever opened your eyes? Have you seen all the unseen? ♥A charade is still a charade

I hate admitting . Lol (random much...) The picture to the left is an umbrella (courtesy of colour splash, photobucket) The picture to the right is Allen Walker and golem Timcanpy (Anime D-gray man) I lyk e golem cos it looks cute^^ Anyway, will be off for overseas (tmr) bbq wif family & a blast of fun(: Some people are so afraid to die that they never begin to live. ~Henry Van Dyke ♥xoxo

Snowy white winter, I want to see that(: It is lyk a drean that I want to fulfil Btw, I'm done with ALL my homework! Am going overseas for awhile from Saturday I'm gonna have lots&lots of rest ♥xoxo

Don't talk if you don't want to listen Don't see if you don't want to hurt Don't hear if you don't want noise Don't speak if you want to be alone Don't hurt just becos you feel lyk it Don't look at your reflection if you only see your flaws in it Don't hold me down 'cos here I am. Tryin' to move on. ♥Silence brings nothing but tension

(S) earching for what I had ever left behind (T) magining how far I can go a distance with my imagination (A) ttempting life and proking it like never before (R) eaching for a star that's never been reached before(xD) ♥I'm a mess. Fix me.

There are tears running down my cheeks 'cos sinus is acting up again. -.-" Gonna have a bad night then... Loving skinny red ties Random^^ ♥xoxo

I'm not who you think I am I lie in front of your faces & you still believe I find solace within these walls I let my anger overtake my actions Anger clouds every inch of my being I find myself pathetic at times I can't even bring myself to face the world sometimes I wake up in the morning having awful thoughts sometimes Thoughts that make me go mad People just wouldn't understand if I tell them They'll say, "I understand. It's okay." That is effing bullshit I feel so down today It's the weather, the stupid life & stupid times I want to hold on to stay sane but I have no will to My body wants to feel pain while I try to stay sane It wants to hurt To feel something worse than what's been lying on the inside I'm dun wan attention I want de-attention I want to be alone and contented with my own space ♥xoxo

If dreams are what our semi-conscious mind is thinking or doing then... What are nightmares? Are they warnings from the past & present? ♥xoxo?

Muahahaha. Went out with Farah ages ago (101210) Had a lot of fun and humiliated self in front of the public. Thats Farah for me. WACKY. We laughed lyk a lot! First of all, imagine being 7hours with her She's REALLYREALLY fun Very entertaining and super insane at times 1) We took a train at 10.10am to City Hall & walked to Suntec Convention Hall (which btw we got lost first at the mall) 2) We went to the Popular Bookfest then the book that I wanted to buy wasn't there): so I bought 2 pens (purple & pink^^) 3) We walked about Suntec Mall and couldn't find the DAMN basement. Farah go withdraw money at POSB.Eventually, WE DID! So we went to Swensens' to order a cake (plus taste the flavours available) 4) We were hungry so we ate at the KFC there. I ate Zinger burger meal while Farah ate Cheesy BBq smth. 5) We walked back to City Hall MRT (& bought plaster at Watson for Farah's PAINFUL leg) and at the same time laugh at the people wearing their co...

I underlined the word like . I crossed out the word love . I bold the word trust . I scribbled the word lies . I circled the word friendship . I correction the word hate . Then I realzed, how much I've changed. This 3 years are coming to an end & I'm coming into a new beginning (: ♥xoxo

Wash all the pain away. (I am almost done with ALL my hwk!!!) I'm happy but not contented. (I watched Rapunzel/Tangled a twisted tale already!!!) I'm moody but not sad. (I'm gonna write a new years' resolution soonxD) I'm insomniac but not tired. (The lit. project is crap) I'm outgoing but shy. (I've been laughing lotsxxxD) I'm surrounded but lonely. (I've been kinda silly) I'm me but no one gets it. ♥xoxo

Went to the cinemas on the 1st of December 2010(: I watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1. The Cathay cinema at EHub. I was SUPPOSE to go with Farah but something cropped up last minute. I couldn't find a fren so I ended up going alone^^ I bought the seat E-18 seat of the theatre 4 & well, seat E-17 also ended up being mine cos no one sat in it. I bought the medium combo & entered the threatre. It was damn cold and I was lyk freezing. I put on my cardigan and was still cold. So, I kinda curled up and put my bag in the next seat. FYI, it was a couple seat. Lol. Anyway, it was a great movie which I WILL watch next year for the Part 2. I'm almost done with my homework (YAY!) and will start revision soon. I'm aiming high but I'm also very lazy rite now. Oh and during the holidays, I LAUGH WAY TOO MUCH. I'm on high most of the days and when I'm moody, that's a heck of a nightmare. ♥xoxo

I had this reallyreally cool idea after watching SO many videos on youtube(: I'm going to write my compo (hwk) like a movie script but in all words. I dun know how I'm gonna pull it off. But it's possible^^ Anyway, tmr got the award nomination show. Gonna catch it before I go watch Harry Potter. ♥Catch a star

Orange TicTacs is so addictive(: Anyway, I haven't watched Harry Potter. Will be watching it with FARAH NABILAH on the 1st of December(: We'll try to catch the 01.45pm one. ♥heartshearts

Would you reach out if I asked you to? Would you hear me out if I spoke? Would you cry if you had sacrificed for something so mere? Would you be as ignorant to ignore your surroundings? Would you be so naive to believe in whatever others tell you? Would you lend me a shoulder when I cry? Would you still help when I'm almost helpless? Would you lie if I begged you to? Would you hesitate if you were in doubt? Would you give in if it'll satisfy another? Would you hurt if you're in pain? Would you wait if I was a step behind you? Would you take the first step if you KNEW me? WOuld you hold my hand if that's my last wish? Would you... Cos I would. ♥could, would, will

Have you ever felt like people doesn't understand you? Have you ever felt lost in your own home? Have you ever wished to be someone different? Have you ever wondered what's your boundries? Have you ever felt so alone in a crowd? Have you ever realized things that you don't want to? Have you ever had a dream that won't come true? Have you ever fallen out of love? Have you ever felt so confused, your mind goes blank? Have you ever.... ♥Elmo is cute

J-bee wins 4 AMA awards including Best Artist. wow. ANYWAY, Was on YOUTUBE and I think some people are WAY too harsh. He's not just a star becos of his looks. ANYWAY, I've bought all my school books(: I also started writing. Like random poems and scripts. I have been doing my homework & I'm going to revise after that for the O's. Oh and Sebastian Vettel is World F1 Champion(: I supported him. YAY! ♥X and an O

*yawn* I'm awake. Yeah.yeah. Holiday has been sloww... I'm looking forward to HARRY POTTER! other than that, hwk's NOT done YET. Revision is... out of the question for now. Go out with frens is a no.no. cos I broke. So I'm pretty much reading books and crapping. So... I wrote this last night out of boredom/anger; A wave of somthing, A life on hold. A word to nothing, A heartbreak sold. Words are chopped. Voice has ran away, Sentences are cropped, Truth is on replay. I'll play your tune, As long as you play mine. I'll catch the moon, As long as you'll be fine. (Pretty much incomplete work.) ♥baby you're a firework...

Today is the VERYVERY official LAST day of school. Had FOUNDATION programme... was VERY boring but I learnt some stuff at least. Having a terrible time remembering the O'level MT. I guess that my compo was TOO short but... I'm gonna have fun this holiday of COURSE! I'm going bowling as a HUGE group. I hope that'll be FUN! I want a pair of CONVERSE or PUMA shoes. I reallyreally need to buy a pair but I'm broke... Becos I need to match my jeans with it. My EDC jeans looks nicer when I wear it wif shoes^^ Ad's next to me surfing the net; FACEBOOK-ing. Mai's on TUMBLR. Yesterday, my classmates were talking abt prom next year. & I was thinking, O'levels. I'm so lame. So yeah. Anyone wanna go watch HARRY POTTER? ♥Looking forward

You don't know me. I'm a stranger in your eyes. I love your eyes and life that is so high. I love your sense of working hard. Oh. Gosh. I can't even meet you in person. ROTFL. Ok. Back to reality. Did you know that I suck? Well, now you do. I've stuck to doing nothing. Nothing at all right now. Champions do not become champions when they win the event, but in the hours, weeks, months and years they spend preparing for it. The victorious performance itself is merely the demonstration of their championship character. T. Alan Armstrong Champions aren't made in the gyms. Champions are made from something they have deep inside them-- a desire, a dream, a vision. Muhammad Ali The game isn't over till it's over. Yogi Berra ♥xoxo

Don't run. I'm scared of your fall. ♥fullstop

There are places in this world we have not conquered. Heights that we have not yet reached. Depths that we have not touched. Hearts we have not united. Dreams we have not realised. Justice that we have not served. There are a million and one things we have not done but, there's still time. ♥rwndom (re-wen-dom)

Tomorrow get back report book... (Super sian) Other than that, it's all kk. I LOVE the rain. I feel at peace when it rains. Each droplet is lyk a lifetime of somethingness. Anyway, I'm also writing a script. Lyk a movie script only cooler cos it's by ME(: A splash of sadness is seen at the surface but no one sees the inner most sadness. I'm crapping. I'm mood-swinging. My sister and I broke HER glass cup yesterday. So epic cos she's lyk 24! So childish then get scolded... I'm so tired and my voice is lyk... fading away. I sound lyk some rocker. Inter-class games were FANTASTIC yesterday. I'm happy and contented (I know they have the same meaning) for 3/5. 3rd and with no form or co-form teacher present(: ♥With Love

EOY results were... not really satisfying. I am having kind of a good day. I'm listening to songs and not caring abt damned results. Anyway, I kinds feel lyk rebonding my hair. It's not very erm...nice. I wanna have FUN and let loose but I have got Malay O'levels to get A1! I also need to maintain my class position(: WHO CARES!? I'm so gonna get something to celebrate about. Did I forget to mention I broke the lights in my room? It's seriously broken beyond repair. So I guess I'll get into trouble soon i think. I'm on YOUTUBE now.W atching Thomas Daley dive. Lol(: ♥hearthearts

EXAMS ARE OVER! really happy that they are actually. not gonna care abt the results-YET Other then that, I'm a total mess. I am tired and am wearing this LAME rubber band ring for good luck charm My sugarrush is not always available... So I watched the commonwealth games 2010 It has been reallyreally FABULOUS! The diving & gymnastics are the best! I guess I am happy currently. There is not much to say actually... ♥xoxo

I'm different. I'm unique. Your voice means nothings cos you're crushable. You have nothing I want to hold on to. When I can't help it, I scream. Lies that set me up for a bitter end. I won't hear those bullshit again. i have had my share . It's your turn to have yours... ♥Take it back.

Am the dream factory. creepy dreams that I dun wan them to come true. Weirded out but who cares? haha School has been kk Started studying already. I hope that my efforts won't go down the drain. I'm reallyreally determined to surpass my (now) limits Lol. I've got the magic in me! i want a chocolate coated lollipop) hehe(: ♥darn

gee what a terrible week SO much work and so little sleep I am kinda injured (no elaboration) but alls' cool now. I dun wan another BS thing to drop my way Exams are crappy as usual Haven't even started revision so *epic* I wish life was so easy I want to close my eyes and fall into bed soft and cushy ♥Insert dimple smile

Dimple I reallyreally love them. so who has them? The genetics of dimples is actually rather interesting. Dimples are a dominant tr ait, which m eans that it only takes one gene to inherit dimples. If neither of your parents has dimples, you shouldn't have them either, unless you experience a spontaneous mutation. If one of your parents has dimples, you have a 25-50% chance of inheritin g the gene, since it means that parent inherited the gene from one or both pare nts. If both of your parents have dimples, you have a 50-100% chance of inheriti ng the gene, depending on how they inherited their dimple genes. - http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20090207215328AAyPsY8 - cool eh? well... this week has been wrecked. Fever and tests and more tests. I felt like seriously crying but I won't(: ok... so I said i wanted a pair of high-top shoes. A short list I made becos of it; - Freestyle Hi (reebok) (the all white shoe the left) -LACOSTE SONATTA NS (the black shoe) -Women...

went home. got MC and an excuse to not play for CCA tmr. Super tired and lethargic. Hope to get well. haiz... ♥so sick

HEYHEY! I'm lyk in school rite now. I have NOT finished Maths September Holiday hwk YET. But it's okay... I'll get by JUST FINE. Actually, today was a sulky day. My knucke is lyk blueblack thanks to my bad morning. Sleep is a total sucker. I need MORE SLEEP! Other than that, I'm kinda happy. Gloretta is sick and Tze Min is lyk in class rite now. Maisarah is lyk at my left. Do you like macaroons and meringues? I HEARTS them to the core. I don't eat them often but they're reallyreally nice. I gave Tze Xin her letter and had fun during P.E. with Pavi, Atika, Adriana and Maisarah. We played floorball and laughed A LOT. Recess with Christabella, Wan Qiu and Anisa. Tiffany Ang is absent too so I hope she gets well soon:) ♥iHeartsCandyhearts

I went to Tampines today. The HERSHEYS shop was FANTASTIC! All the cool chocolate and sweets you WON'T find in Singapore (other than Cocoa Tree) is there! It was a real thrill to be in that shop^^ Bought Ad's present and hopes she lyks it. I'm actually still recovering from my illness. & my maths homework lies undone. I've been sick since Monday so I still have not finished it - YET Other than that, I guess thing's are okay... I want to acknowledge one thing. Discovering new things daily does make a person active and fun. ihearts

♥teehee^^ Throat is lyk burning! I'm tired and sick. I hope I'll recover real soon:) I guess I'm too tired to type now. TTFE

Yesterday was CCA day & the last day of school. Ms Ong (Jing Hui) got her Teacher's Day present and we got discount on our physical training (oh yeah!) Before that, I went to tamp. with Tze Min where SHE ate at LJS. We were late with Gloretta (who waited for us) and Ms Ong held the door for us (can you believe that?) Thanks cher:) Then the day went on... I had sore throat and I'm feeling sick right now. Diaoz-.-" But everthing's okay I guess. Just chilling out and trying to rest so yeah... Injured my left hand knuckles the other day. Seems to be healing well (great!) Oh and got back report book. haha. Not gonna say my results but it's kk. Not very shabby. Failed a maths class test on Thursday but hey! I'm trying my best here. ♥done with seating here doing nothing

woops. haha. What the hell am I doing with my life? I awesomely forgot to say smth. I WANT SESAME STREET! haha 'I want elmo, cookie monster, ernie and big bird! I want. i want. i want! haha. Can? Can? JKJK. ♥wat?

aww... My week got worse. From smth to a rainy friday. Did you know? I was freaking drenched? Until... i was bare-footed in class. & I took off my socks and shoelaces and walked around. Everything was wet. Kinda sucky but... oh well. Tomorrow will be doing smth with ADRIANA! haha Hope Hizan and Sandra likes their presents:) ♥hmm...

Agugu bugugugu YOU KUKU! haha. Lame shit. I know. Am in library having a boring time. Teaching my friend bearings. Lyk since yesterday, after CCA, I suddenly bad mood... Then I've been PUNCHING every wall & pillar while walking. I'm not sure why... Then now, I'm freaking stuck wif a damn red knuckle. How bad can this week get? ♥SQUEK!

Hi!HI! Haha. In F&N now, doing coursework. The aces day dance was WOW over the top. Guess the teachers have a kinda okay taste in songs. I lyk super tired now. Had about 4.5hours of sleep. SSSSlleeepppp Deprivation (giggle giggle) I love watching sports. The athletes are so well-built! 6 abs & humble O.O I love tennis most currently. Random much ♥haha

ARGH! This is so frustrating. I want to scream but I've gotta keep my cool. To jerks out there, YOU SUCK. (utter me-ness) ♥ i'mgone

I'm paranoid. I keep thinking smth bad would happen. Lyk smth bad to the ones i heart. Sometimes, I get scared . Hear me out. I can't hear myself too. Someone said smth. Smth that i'm confused about. It's lyk the world is round. Why? Haha. School has been terrible. Dammit. I want it all to end. Stop lying to me. Tell me. ♥With Love

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TIFFANY ANG JIE LIN. Will always love you and remember you as my bestie. Never give up and always remember that there is someone there when you need help. Lol. Happy birthday gurl. ♥iHeartsTiffy

Gosh. What a depressing week. From school to frens to blood & blisters. I've got tones to say but there is much I want to leave behind. People tell me that I should go on. But hell I don't know what to do. Would you if you're stuck somewhere. It's lyk freefalling and you being unable to stop. geddit? Guess not. Tests and common tests has been terrible. Even quizzes are. I'm so uptight right now. I need somebody to slap my face and wake me up. If you think you can, please help. Lol. Kinda need it. But can you shove me instead of slapping? I don't lyk my face red. WILL BE OKAY. EVEN WITHOUT YOU DAMMIT! ♥Bwek

Dammit. Just passed maths quiz. Haha. I love my hearts . random much. I heart chocolate cakes. Oh and I'm no longer awesome Hehe. BORONS! haha NYAA disaster... Somehow, somewhat lost. With no one to break my fall. FREAK ME! haha ♥ Gooweyy

Pink starrs, AM alone rite now. The dreams I once had are all gone. When asked where they are, I say they've flown away. Actually, I had my class pic today. It was okay I guess. I tilted my head and smiled lyk a retard. I really think there are too much memories in pictures. I want to burn all those photographs I hate. They crush me up deep inside. Oh and Adriana & I are insane rite now. She knows blushblush why. LOL. How many brain cells have I lost to foolishness? Too many to count. I've not had my chance to have fun. I'm missing out. I'm halfway gone. No one will remember me. I'll never make my mark. ♥Somewhat dead

Wohhhhooooo! I'm awesome. I start the AW3SOM3 family tree. If i said YOU ARE AWESOME to you, you're in my family! Haha. That's all. ♥With Love

What fills me? Is it my frens? Is it the darn homeworks? Is it someone? NO. It's me that fills myself. I cover up holes of my life. I am who I don't want to be. I can't even say I'm nice. Everyone has their impressions. I hope that one day, people would text or write me a letter. Tell me my flaws. Gosh. Is that so hard? Is it hard when I'm waiting? Dammmit people. School was lonnng. ♥With Love

CCA totally drained me out. My Saturday was filled with a lot of sleeping. I'm frustrated with myself. Then there's Adriana and of course, my besties. Wan Qiu invited me to her b'day party. I'm really grateful and may or may not be attending it. Right now, my priority is school. CCA always drains the best out of me. I can barely keep awake nowadays. OTHER PEOPLE MAY COPE BUT NOT ME. I also totally walked away from my frens on Friday. I walked out and back to school while on the phone with Adriana. I'm really not sure what's wrong with me. Dammit. ♥Dammit

Who is this Zwe Awesome? He's my british-accent-3-year-old -cutey-awestrukking son♥ Of course, he doesn't exist-yet. Haha. Okay... My life has been okay i guess. A lot of whoops and zzzzz What happen wen i'm hyper? I don't make sense. CCA is now Tue AND Fri. Sian la. Cut hair already. Quite okay ah. I guess it's been quite long but there's a reason for 'it' you! (you is you la) An except from my lines of lines of awesomeness... 'Lyle crouch in the corner. His abs hurt as he curls his frame up. "If only. If only...", his mind was playing how he'd said those words. He let out a cry. He lifted his middle finger up high and cursed.' ♥With a certain uncertainness

School is officially - OVER MANN! (so long ago) So far, I have had a lot of injuries. From the leg muscles to the heel of my left wrist to very painful shoulders. Other then that, I'm a-okay(: Results are okay i guess. Gloretta is not in Singapore. sigh... Have not done literature project and F&N only... Have been going out with sisters. Will be going out to cut hair soon=) ♥With Love

Imagine reading a book that touched your heart so bad... that you cried? Yeah I cried over this book title The Perfect Shot by Elaine Marie Alphin I curled up and cried. I'm so pathetic . But I really LOVE the story a lot. Anyway, got back the freaking results. Not so good but ya... Much better compared to last years'. Among classmates, quite well I guess. Just felt like I did the papers with no expectations. Too filled to the brim with my OWN problems. Lyk... sleeping. Not enough sleeps makes your mood swing lyk shit . Ya... ♥WOpps

When calm turns into anger, i do stupid things. I hurt but I'll always get back up. I'm me and that's why I'm different. I'll tear those who frustrates me down. Love that I'm hyper these days haha. Had Canadian Pizza today. Ohllaaaalaaaa ♥With Love

Exams are FINALLY over haha not gonna care and will be partying. (catch up with sleep first) lol If you've screwed up real bad, HIGH FIVE! Am shutting my ears (don't tell me the results are coming) Am gonna slllllllllack(: (no more notes mann!) Watch tv and sleep late^^ (no more 'go and study') Wanna go out with besties (shut it aabout results) wanna cut hair on 25th June (not gonna care if i look stupid) look far beyong people! Go jump around eat all the food you can do something wacky kiss someone or party till it's late! (don't shut yourself away!) All sweetened, Zee (winkwink for your results) ♥With Love