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It's been three months since I last saw him. And he is still absolutely adorable. I am so blessed to have someone who is there through my good and bad. Someone who has promised to take care of me even when everything has been said and done. Sometimes, I feel like I don't count my blessings enough. I am so grateful for all God has given me. I am a humble servant. On a side note, The Intern was an amazing movie! There was so much emotion, so much lesson to learn and most of it all, there is so much I have learnt. Life isn't always about pointing fingers, finding the faults of others. Life can also be about second chances, chasing your dreams and remembereing the fact that we are all equal. Reminds us that we will die someday but the life and its undertaking is up to us before then. P.S| I've gained weight manz:( ♥With Love

The best few feelings in the world would be love and happiness. Today I met Feeza. She made me smile by just letting me roam like a kid and catching me just as I catch her at her worse.  Then I texted Fateha and Im so thankful to have a friend who loves me with her heart and not just with her words. And also to the Carousel sellers for their awesome services:3 Nonetheless, I am thankful for so many things, And you, you've lost weight. It pains me but I hope you have your fighting spirit and will continue to smile and laugh with me because I am amazing. HAHAHA~ ♥With Love

Hey~ Im GRADUATING!!! HAHAHA. This is a rare occasion because once upon a time, I almost gave up. LOL. Please let it be the best day of my life. And hopefully, you'll say something too. Because my heart yearns for you? HAHAHA. Okay. I must be crazy. ♥With Love, Zarifah

Isn’t it funny that we are so willing to go miles and miles for the one that we love and yet we end up lost ourselves. I thought I knew what love meant. But I thought wrongly. Stupid people like myself tend to be lead into hot soup by going back to comfort which happens to be the person who does not love me back the same way. He is hot then cold. He is probably not even sure how I fit into his life so I am just a damned spare part. I hurt until I can describe the saltiness of my tears and the pain in my heart. The tears have a subtle bitter taste that lingers in my throat which burns my eyes and puffs up my cheeks. The hurt in my heart knocks the breath out of me and forces me to sleep before it makes me hurt myself physically. It’s like a physical pain that I cannot cure nor ease. I can’t bandage it nor apply oil nor down pills to make it go away. And even as he drifts away from me, I cannot tell him to come back. The voices are telling me he doesn’t want me anymore. He’s already tire...

 Hello! I am back~ This time with more pictures~  This is Andy. He is my so called brother cos he's so protective and caring towards me. I am thankful that he stays up to entertain me till I fall asleep and he very nice ah~  The letters that I wrote to thank the people who I had worked with^^  My pre-riding look. The wind is really super loud when we were on the underground tunnel. Timid me actually fell asleep cos I didn't want to hear the scary wind blowing. But it was super awesome experience:3  This is the super yummy yoghurt I had at Food Junction at Bugis Junction. Green apple and green tea:3  Hello:)  Bro~  Boy~  The 3Cs Girl~ Hello~ ♥With Love

Im so tired. Can I stop going through the cycle? sigh. ♥With Love

You were never mine in the first place. But I love you like you were, I still do. But there's nothing I can do about it anymore.  ♥With Love

I guess I disappeared online. No Twitter, Facebook nor Tumblr. HAHAHA. Technically, Im still here. Just.. I need somewhere to run away and forget about everything. About you. But I can't. Because it's me. Life's not that hard if you look at it in a nice way. I went for a really long run and am still not tired (weird~). Plus, I made pancakes this morning. I know this is a rare post. But no one reads my blog honestly so like, meh? Maybe I listened too much to my friends but then again, so do you. And I don't like that as I try my best to leave everything to fade away, I constantly break down. It's like I've lost all reason. It's like Im back at square one. And I've no means and no will to continue going. What am I saying~ Im sick:( Can't seem to recover. I think I must start being positive~ "Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?" Yeah. I don't sleep much either. LOL. Really, what am I saying~ Hmm.. I think my injuries ...

Hmm.. So Im currently in a relationship. Im not going to say that it has been easy. I mean a month plus and we've had our break downs and throw outs. But I hope we'll last as long as possible and make impossible possible someday.. And we started out unexpectedly and I didn't know that I could love like this. Thus Im thankful for him who always make me smile when Im down and hugs me tight when Im in a helpless state of mind.  ♥WJWS

I've not written in quite a bit. So I shall write a little more. I guess today I'm confused. It seems like I have fallen for someone. There's just something to him that makes me want to cry and be the most vulnerable one. I dunno if I like him or is it just I care for my empire. It's not easy. Sigh. ♥With Love

So basically, it's the holidays. Im broke. I've cleaned up my cardboard and then.. sigh. I can't buy clothes cos my first sister won't let me. And it sucks cos I want comfy clothes and all the clothes I have are those really tight or like supposedly nice. NICE IS NOT COMFY OKAY? There's a huge difference. I feel sad. Obviously. And it's not just that. Basically, I can't find a job. No one wants me. Im incapable. GREAT. And it doesn't get better from here on. I have camp from the 25-28th and I've not packed. Not anticipating it. And worse of all, my parents wants to go Bandung, Indonesia and I just wanna scream. SCREAM I tell you. I wanna go too but if I don't have money then how am I suppose to go? URGH. This is the saddest time of my life I swear.  ♥SIGH:/

It is but moments like this that trust falters and truth is twisted into lies. I don't know where it all began or why it did but that's not how a family should act.  ♥With Love

It's going to come to an end soon. But the pressure and stress, it really builds up. I don't even know where to start.The amount of work is just.. horrifying. You know they stereotype the Arts students in secondary school, yeah. I feel that now. I feel awful. I don't know a thing. And when I read up, I don't, I'm not.. that type of person who just sits down and can finish their work. I need so much time and effort just to get myself going. Somedays I just curl under my blanket and just 'wake up late' just because. And I don't know why or when I became like this. Don't talk about society to me. They just are. How can I even succeed if I can't overcome me. ME. I come late for lectures in the morning and sometimes, when my brain is fuzzed out, I just.. I just skip lectures. Im disappointing my parents and no, Im not suppose to do that. I am that daughter they go around boasting about to everyone. I just have to keep satisfying them I ...

 It's been a long time since I wrote anything. Im not gonna be a liar and say hey, Im okay! It's all getting tougher but I believe so yeah. I believe life is going to be better. I don't know what I'll turn into. But I will be. ♥With Love

I sat there crying. I sat there upset. I sat there angry. I sat there tired. I sat there silent. I sat there stressed. I sat there pressured. I sat there waiting. I sat there listening. I sat there crouched. I sat there falling apart. I sat there bursting. I sat there. I just sat there. I just sat there feeling ignored. ♥I sat there.

This is not normal. LOL. I've been obsessing. And surprisingly, I've been happy. HAHA. SCREW YOU BITCHES WHO TOLD ME I CAN'T BE HAPPY! 1. War. Mostly it's the true accounts and it's interesting. Especially Iwo Jima and Korean War. 2. Big Bang, Korean band. Let's say they're just so different from any other bands in the world. 3. Coffee. So Imma search for the best place for coffee. Seriously. The smell~~~ 4. Hair colour. HAHAHAH. EMERALD GREEN BABY 5.  Lyrics. Good lyrics are seriously a complete ♥Like A Boss

 Let's be honest. It's the start of the holidays. And I hate every inch of it. Im annoyed. Annoyed that all I ever wanted has become a big blotch of nothingness. What's squash to me now? It merely helps me to distress and feel better. But when I hate someone there, I lose it. I get fucking mad at how they infiltrate the space I call comfort. If you think I am fine, you thought wrong. I am happy. Happy on the inside. ♥We are merely humans. Remember that.

So go ahead and lie to yourself, and pretend that you're a ray of light, when you're a broken candle, you're keeping time with yourself, when did it all start moving way too fast, for you to handle, you're short on breath but heavy on time, you lost the words but you found the rhyme, it's all just poetry now. ♥Paradise Fears

My birthday is otw but lyk.. I dont want it to come know? Cos apparently, I have CSAS test on that day. 25% >.< ♥Dammit

 I must say.. You stole my attention and even when I try to ignore you , I can't:( You 're different you know that? You 're smart, funny, talented, fun &  mysterious. You are my motivation for the upcoming term test and I hope that you would continue to motivate me. It's weird and all but really, truly, you 're an amazing person. Never fail to make me smile during trainings. I know that Im just angsty and all in front of you most of the time.. Im sorry for that. Aha. & yes you , I like you . ♥ Aish..